All that I did,all that I tried to do,all that I will do,all of it is entirely meaningless. The attempts of making characters,the countless weeks writing backstories and other such things,all time that I let myself down. The games,the escapism,the stupid SFM bits,the roleplays,all that mental power that could've and should've gone in my development as a person went here. Went in the drain,poured in a stupid screen until my eyes bled. All the attempted kindness and knowing people it amounts to nothing. I'm tired of being stupid useless sack of nothing but I am unable to change no matter how I try. Trying to appease others to the best of my abilities and it got me here. Alone,stupid,scared. Using the internet was a mistake. It just took me 20 years to realise it.